February 22, 2011 – Seekers and Knowers
I have had a terrible head cold the past two days and have had great difficulty sleeping, so have been meditating and just “being”, not trying to force anything, and doing my best to accept my current “no so pleasant” health condition. I know it is part of the panchakarma cleansing process, but that doesn’t make it any less uncomfortable.
While meditating, I was suddenly drawn to some notes I had written several months ago, while still at home in Israel. And the one file I was drawn to, was actually written exactly 4 years ago, in Rishikesh, ON THIS EXACT DATE: February 22nd!!
This could not be coincidence, and so have decided to post it once again. This issue of “seekers” has come up many times during this trip, and I once again had need to relate to the issue from my personal point of view. The channeling below was exactly what I needed to hear, once again, to encourage me to always move forward in the way I feel is best for me. I do my utmost to do that, but there are times when we need supportive words….I have been lovingly given these words again and share them here with you.
…find myself always being different from the travelers I meet. In McLeod, I am one of the few people who spend any length of time there who is not either an aspiring or already practicing Buddhist. Now I find in Rishikesh that I am the only person I’ve met so far who is not either looking for the perfect Yoga teacher, the Swami who will bring them enlightenment, the perfect Ayurveda doctor or the ultimate massage. Everyone seems to be searching for something…on some kind of pilgrimage…where is the best puja on the Ganga, the best Thali, the best mountain trail, the most beautiful temple. I find no need for any of these things and began to wonder if something is wrong with me. am I just too lazy to bother?
Or is it something deeper…and then I woke up to meditate and my guides came to me really loud and clear for the first time in many many months and the following was said:
You are neither practicing Buddhist in Dharamsala nor yoga student in Rishikesh. You are not a seeker. Others are seeking. YOU KNOW. Relax into that KNOWING. JUST BE.
Your only quest is inward. Everything you need is already there. The place is unimportant…it is just a means for you to easily access what is already KNOWN to you.
Relax into it. Let it flow.
You are blessed…We love You.