India Lesson 2012 FINALLY – Nov. 9, 2012
I figured it out actually while writing THIS post…so you will have to bear with me until it gets put down in words here…as it happened!
Don’ know if this will ever get posted. No internet for a few days which is definitely a blessing in disguise for sure. I am still in my “healing crisis”-taking longer than I had planned on-or what the doctor refers to as: “strong reaction to panchakarma” .
So I am being forced to eat very lightly-my stomach wont’ tolerate much more yet, and resting. Don’t have energy for much else and it is very frustrating. There is so much I need (or want) to do these last couple of weeks and being forced to stay up in and around my room is annoying and boring…especially without internet!!
I am now sitting at the lovely new Pundir restaurant where I ordered a fruit salad. Just anything not to have to go right back to the room. And to my great surprise, they just put in free WIFI! And luckily I have my new phone which I can actually use with WIFI- not much good for writing, but at least I can check emails and FB. Which I just did…and what did I find there?
A message from Eckhart Tohl which was exactly what I needed to see as I sit here writing about how frustrating and annoying this forced rest is for me!
“Surrender is the simple but profound wisdom of yielding to, rather than opposing, the flow of life”.
This is THE lesson I was meant to learn here this year. I must now find the way to put it into practice both here and when I get home.
I’ve been confronting the need to rest versus the need to “make the most” of my last 2 weeks here. Frustrated that I can’t be out and about and not truly allowing myself to relax into resting. Even though I spend all day up at my room-“resting”.
If the rest is only physical, it is not rest at all.
I have a big lesson to put into practice when I get home and the practice begins now.
No matter how it effects all those loving and dear ones around me…what they expect of me-how they expect me to feel-or what may disappoint them regarding how I come back from India, is truly not my concern.
Only being “true to myself” is what needs to concern me at this time.
This of course includes the lesson of living in complete Faith and Freedom from Fear-knowing that all is as it should be, and is good.
Experiencing ALL in complete acceptance, joy and gratitude and of course, Freedom from Fear.
And now that I have figured it out….I already feel better! More at peace, enjoying this time alone, playing games, doing my needlepoint, reading, listening to music, even dancing some folkdancing in my room – and not thinking about what I “cannot” do, but about all the pleasures of what I CAN do.
And to really make my day…as I started heading back up to my room…I heard my name called from across the street….and when I looked…to my great joy and total surprise, it was Akhilesh!!
And who is Akhilesh you may ask? Well, that is a story for another post…hopefully tomorrow…or of course whenever these begin to get posted.
Namaste from Rishikesh